Lacking of the things I don’t even know

• Author: kissfendi
• Filed under: Champagne
• Date: Jan 24,2007

Waiting for Nadal to play 1/4 finals. Too early for my Dentist appointment. The snow has been melting and going up almost plus degree from minus 3 last night. What else should I be doing today if not just to think about Mango and wild lemons in the farm.

Should I be thinking also the rain that washed the road away? Should I also be thinking about the cockles of chickens at early dawn? should I also be thinking about the composition and the deformation of the coconut leaves? How about the people I love and so as the people I bestowed my hatred and existence? Love and hate, and string of denial puts man into judgment. — A wrong thought leads to nothing.

I am missing something today and I feel so lacking of some things I don’t even know. What else should I do than judging myself failures?

Abercrombie and fitch

First dashing

• Author: kissfendi
• Filed under: Alternative Lifestyle
• Date: Jan 22,2007

Rooftop still filled with cold cotton fresh from heaven. the street becoming empty and silence slowly invading it. First snow came today.. Temp from 7 dropped to -2. Some avian suddenly stopped thier system and some frosted like paper bags. My Nadal wins Australian open against Murray and set for quarter finals. I booed alone to death for Murray.. I just felt little joy while peeping the snow falling and making the plus to minus… My heart slowly dying for mangoes while my instinct telling me to go for wild berries!!!

When can I be a pop star if I didnt make it as a porn star? I have never qualified for anything as what I think of. I often get sold with the lowest bid though I showed it all out and all the way. Mybe some of my weakest points are obvious to oblivion because I never muster to hide what is desirable from me. People can easily get a hook on it. But anyway, ” It is what it is” A mouthful soul with undesirable play or role is often mimick FENDI and become my wreckage. I should feel what the joy there is could a snow and a small winning than thinking a whole basket full of mango yet too far and too sour… I need a break!

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PEACE and AsS

PS: I have been writing everywhere and there and lose them!

I thought..the music died.

• Author: kissfendi
• Filed under: Travel
• Date: Jan 17,2007

Just came home from my first home…
life seems ordinary back at the table top and it was life sentence as I thought., Friends, lovers, rhum and commitments were too harsh to take. it was a mix of big ugh and owwch!
But till then, back here in the colds.,. there’s another life waiting for me…have to place back myself where silence rehabilitates peace and joy of my single soul.

I just miss the writing and mind giggling on the web. Back home my burp was different as it was much sweeter and tastier like mangoes but compassion was more painful to rejoice.

Reasons are reason for denial, friends and me and "me" is only for myself  and if no one else would take. I have to leave if they stay and if someday they would leave me, then I have to move on…

Thank you and thank for the music…and cake for my 18th birthday!!!!

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